Job XLIV

 There are moments in life that define us. There are situations and circumstances we go through that compel us to either rise to the challenge, dig deep, and discover new wells of heretofore unexpected strength, or crush us beneath the weight of their bulk, leaving us broken and untethered. These are the make-or-break moments, the ones that shape us and we remember for the rest of our lives. When we find ourselves at the crossroads of such monumental, life-defining choices, the deciding factor will always be whether we trust God beyond what we can see with our eyes of flesh or surrender to the avalanche of despair that the situation produced.

Trust, faith, and hope are all choices we make as individuals, and once the choice is made, we contend with the consequences, whether for good or ill. It takes self-awareness and brutal honesty to look at where we are and admit, if only to ourselves, that it's due to our choices and decisions over the span of months, years, or decades that we find ourselves in certain situations and conclude that had we heeded God at certain bifurcations in the road, we would be in a different place altogether.

You can’t blame God for where you are if every step of the way, you turned left when He told you to turn right, moved forward when He told you to stand still, and pressed on trying to make it work on your own when His instruction was to rest in Him and see what He can do.

Beyond the ripples and waves the fall of prominent men within Christendom has caused of late, what I find equally tragic is that few, if any, have taken accountability for their actions, acknowledged their failures, and sought repentance. I’m not talking about those who, eying a return to ministry, have half-heartedly apologized for their sin, but those who, understanding the gravity of their situation, repented before God in sackcloth and ash.

It’s not my job to gauge true repentance of heart because only God knows the hearts of men, but with true repentance comes a new humility, a change of one’s ways, and a rejection of the sins that beset them, then exposed them, then made them the topic of the news cycle for weeks on end.

How do you know so and so didn’t repent? Because they’re still trying to find someone to blame for their actions, attempting to scapegoat their sin, and laying the blame at the feet of anyone else other than themselves, that’s how.

Recently, a pastor of one of the biggest churches in America tried to blame his twelve-year-old victim for the unspeakable things he did, claiming that she seduced him, having a Jezebel spirit and a spirit of seduction upon her. Yes, you read that right, twelve. This occurred while he was a fully grown adult, married, with a child, but it was the twelve-year-old’s fault for his being creepy and perverted and grooming her to the point of taking her innocence. Sorry, not sorry, but that’s not true repentance of heart. That’s trying to justify your perversion and licentiousness.

This is where we are, and it’s not because God desired the church to be full of hypocrites and perverts doing unspeakable things to those under their spiritual authority but because those men made choices. Conscious, repeated, ongoing choices contrary to the Word and will of God.

Nobody wakes up five hundred pounds overweight, huffing and puffing as they waddle to the door to take delivery of their Dominos order. It happened gradually, over time, one choice leading to another, compounding its effects, until one either acknowledges the state they’re in or continues to blame the dryer for shrinking their clothes and buying a new dryer.

Sin lies at the door of every man’s heart, and its desire is to corrupt and destroy, but it is our duty to resist it and rule over it, knowing that we have the power to do so through the grace of God. It has been this way since the beginning, when God warned Cain of the enemy’s devices, clearly defining the two paths that were before him. He could have chosen to do well, and he would be accepted, or harden his heart, grow bitter, and do the unthinkable, rising up against his brother Abel and killing him.

Man does not disobey, rebel, or sin in a vacuum. There are always consequences to the path they choose to take, whether those consequences are evident instantly or over time. In His love, God warns us to choose what is good, to do well, and to let faith be the anchor that keeps us from being swept away by the roaring sea, but the choice is ultimately ours as individuals as to whether we will heed His counsel, or do as we will.

Not only did Job not find fault with God for his situation, but he also didn’t go looking for someone to blame for it. He didn’t lash out at his wife, trying to blame her for having lost everything, or his servants who came to bring him the devastating news of what had occurred to his children and his possessions; he didn’t inquire if the cook had made some bad lamb and that’s why he was covered in boils, he retained his integrity and his faith in the God he served and humbled himself in worship. All this while God deemed him a blameless and upright man. It’s not as though Job had some secret sin that had been exposed or knew himself to be faithless, pretending to be faithful. He was not suffering the consequences of his actions or the repercussions of his rebellion. His faith was being tested, all the while remaining in the dark as to why and for what purpose.

Job made the choice to remain faithful even though he could not see the whole picture and was operating with incomplete information. All he knew was that he’d just suffered the loss of all his earthly possessions, the loss of his children, and the loss of his health. Even so, he trusted the God he served and had confidence in His sovereignty.

How far are you willing to trust God? If not all the way, then your faith has not been established, and the only question is how hard the enemy has to press to make you waiver.

With love in Christ,

Michael Boldea, Jr.