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Monday, January 5, 2009

A Personal Matter

First of all, thank you for all your encouragements. There is something that I need to get off my chest, in fact something I need to repent of before you. I have already repented before God, but I know the process will not be complete until I repent before you as well. For the past few months, I've sort of been dragging my feet. Don't get me wrong, I still found joy in the work, the poetry of God's Word always astounded me, but it's been like I've been treading water. The best way I can put it is that I've felt like a man who is certain of his upcoming retirement, and so rather than begin any new projects simply shores up the projects he had started. I realize I could have done more, but I had so convinced myself that the work was nearing its end that starting anything new would have been pointless. I repent of this mindset, and I ask your forgiveness.
I've had to do allot of soul searching the past few weeks. I've had to stand in front of the mirror and remind myself that God is no respecter of persons, there is no preferrential treatment for years in service, He does not believe in nepotism, and that He judges without partiality. I know these are words that I preached often, but somewhere along the way the stopped echoing in my heart. I've had to reaquaint myself with these truths, and repent before God for not fully redeeming the time as I should have.
A soldier follows orders, no questions asked, and this is yet another thruth that God had to remind me of. It has been uniquely humbling to be so chastened.
I've done more in the past three weeks, as pertains to writing and radio programs, than I had done in the past three months. The new radio programs will be made available on the hand of help website as soon as they go through the editing process, and a new teaching on the book of Revelation will be uploaded as soon as I return to the States.
It is a day of rejoicing when God opens our eyes, when He shows us His will even if it is in contradiction with our own will.

With love in Christ,

Michael Boldea Jr.

13 comments:

James Kinsman said...

Press on to wage the warfare!
Feed the flock of God, we need truth, we need much of it and are happy to read and feed on whatever God has for us. TO God be the glory,
Amen!

Mrs. Pugh said...

Brother Michael,

It takes a man of character to publicly repent. And you most certainly are not alone with your sin. All too often it's too easy to sit and wait, instead of continuing to work right up to the last minute.

We know your heart, we know your obedience. We know you are human. I hope you know we love you and pray for you and yours continually.

Thanking you for taking the time to let us know what is/was going on in your life. You most certainly are forgiven!

With love in Christ, from my family to yours,
Mrs. Pugh

P.S. I'm glad to hear there will be another Revelation posting... it has been a long wait!

a seed sower said...

Your forgiven, I knew something was wrong, but I wasn't sure what.

Listen my dearest young brother, we all come to those places.

We all need to work while we still have the opportunity, whether we feel it is of any use or not..whether we think we are being profitable for the kindgdom of God or not, whether we are belittled and begiled, made fun off or abused.....because as you well know the day and hour is coming in which none shall be able to do what we can do now.
Your ministry is a gift given of God and He is not done with you yet....Glory in your persecutions because they persecuted the prophets of old in the same manner.

You know that you hear from God, you know how he has taken you and molded you and used you for His Glory. You know God and He knows you, and that's what counts!

We may not understand all the ins and outs of His plans as yet, but we must toil for His Glory, for it is our reasonable service.

We don't know who God wants to reach or touch or move by our testimonies.
I love you Brother Michael anything I can do to help I will.
Helen B.

Anonymous said...

God bless you,
your sister in our Lord

rleigh said...

God bless you for your repentant heart and your willingness to be transparent. That in itself ministers to God's people and will energize them toward complete obedience in their own hearts. I know it has had that effect on me. Isn't it incredible how He uses even our periods of disobedience to further His kingdom?! Truly we do serve an awesome God!! God bless you! I am sad for you and for your family that you were not meant to return to your homeland just yet. But I am so glad to know that He has kept you here with us -- we desperately need all the help He can send us as far as godly men who are willing to be servants (and therefore leaders) in these dark times. Thank you so much. May the God of all comfort, the One True God, sustain you, and strengthen you, and complete the good work that He has begun in you. Praise be to Him forevermore!

Anonymous said...

John 9:4 "I must work the works of him that sent me, while it is day: the night cometh, when no man can work."

When would this be coming? I'm not suggesting that this is the time, but I am wondering what this would mean?

Jerald said...

Way to go, Michael. Seems to me you're working pretty hard.

Anonymous said...

Dear Bro. Michael,

As I re-read your post of January 1st. & 5th. to my cousin, I hear your heart's cry. As I read your post, I am reminded of my youth.

As a senior in high school, I was torn away from my friends since my first day of school, my beloved Florida and everything that I had known as a child.

Afterwards, I dreamed of returning home and had tried to save money to do so. There was a time that I was presented the chance to go back a few years later. But if I had taken this opportunity, I would not have the wonderful man that I'd already met by that time and now call husband. We wouldn't have have our beautiful children and now our grandchildren.

And though some will call me crazy and with the artic weather that is promised early next week, I can't image winter without snow, let alone not seeing the beautiful colors of fall, as I'd never known of them as a child.

In selfishness, your loss is our gain. God has not totally turned His back on us in America, if He desires that you remain among us and no, I do not place you on a pedestal as you are just a man. But many times God's plans are not our plans and He has better for us than we can see for ourselves for the future. He knows what He's doing when we don't

Again God bless you and your wife for your faithfulness,
Your sister in our Lord

Anonymous said...

My prayers are with you. I am so thankful for your strength because you have been a source of strengthening and inspiration for me. Confession is humbling (I know) but also refreshing to our spirit. You are one who does as God says in Isaiah 35:3 Strengthen ye the weak hands, and confirm the feeble knees. You have done this for me. Thank You.

Michael Arnold (mw . arnold@hotmail.com) said...

Dear Michael,

The peace of God be on and with and in you. God's Spirit has prompted me to write you Michael with a word of encouragement, so I am obeying His command with great joy!

Do not cease your work, for there are many among us in the United States who like me, have fallen away from God and need to hear of His love and His desire to save us through the coming judgement of this "great city Babylon".

Be strong and courageous. Your grandfather has joined the great cloud of witnesses in Heaven. Let us trust and obey.

Pray for me, that I might continue to repent and turn back to God to walk with him. He has a plan for me, but I don't know all of it yet. I do know this, that I'm to share the gospel of Jesus Christ in word, deed and life - walking day by day, moment by moment, turning away from sin and toward the Word of the Living God.

I am praying for you brother, in the Spirit, with thanksgiving for His work in you. Peace of God to you and your loved ones.

I was led to watch your grandfather and you in a film on the Internet this morning, and then I searched to find you. Perhaps you can write me, should God lead you to do so. My email is mw.arnold@hotmail.com . I would like to talk with you on the phone brother - as a friend if God wills.

To the eternal glory of Jesus our Lord and Savior, who shall come to judge and reign on the Earth in that blessed day. Amen.

deannaslater said...

Happy New Year Michael, and so carry on my friend. Blessings

Anonymous said...

Michael,

Your candor and humility touch me so deeply. Those are the Christlike qualities I love to see in our pastor! "The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit. A broken and contrite heart, O God, You will not despise" (Psalm 51).

I am praying daily and fervently for your spiritual, mental, and physical strengthening, that you may serve Him better and with greater joy even during your hardest trials.

You are rare and dear to us, Michael. We Americans need you more than you may realize. I have great confidence in you because I sense that God is about to use you in unusual and significant ways, maybe even surpassing what He did through your grandfather. I feel that the more wholeheartedly you give your life to Him, holding nothing back and with true purity of heart and purpose, the more He is going to use you. This is your preparation time, your drawing-ever-closer-to-the-Lord time, the time for cutting yourself loose from worldly and personal cares while fixing your faith squarely on the One who parts the sea for His people.

I am praising the Lord in advance for whatever He is about to do through you. Glory to Him!

In Christ,

Melanie

Anonymous said...

God bless you brother,
You are beloved and precious to the body - not the 'grandson of" but seated in heavenly places in Him.

We are saved by grace through faith and in our zeal to serve our master we can be assailed by the spirit of condemnation. I war against this, as I learn to submit to his work in my heart and the many fiery trials as he sanctifies me.

May you have rest, peace, and boldness before Him. May you recognize and war against any spirits of condemnation that come against you- a beloved brother.

peace