First of all, thank you for all your encouragements. There is something that I need to get off my chest, in fact something I need to repent of before you. I have already repented before God, but I know the process will not be complete until I repent before you as well. For the past few months, I've sort of been dragging my feet. Don't get me wrong, I still found joy in the work, the poetry of God's Word always astounded me, but it's been like I've been treading water. The best way I can put it is that I've felt like a man who is certain of his upcoming retirement, and so rather than begin any new projects simply shores up the projects he had started. I realize I could have done more, but I had so convinced myself that the work was nearing its end that starting anything new would have been pointless. I repent of this mindset, and I ask your forgiveness.
I've had to do allot of soul searching the past few weeks. I've had to stand in front of the mirror and remind myself that God is no respecter of persons, there is no preferrential treatment for years in service, He does not believe in nepotism, and that He judges without partiality. I know these are words that I preached often, but somewhere along the way the stopped echoing in my heart. I've had to reaquaint myself with these truths, and repent before God for not fully redeeming the time as I should have.
A soldier follows orders, no questions asked, and this is yet another thruth that God had to remind me of. It has been uniquely humbling to be so chastened.
I've done more in the past three weeks, as pertains to writing and radio programs, than I had done in the past three months. The new radio programs will be made available on the hand of help website as soon as they go through the editing process, and a new teaching on the book of Revelation will be uploaded as soon as I return to the States.
It is a day of rejoicing when God opens our eyes, when He shows us His will even if it is in contradiction with our own will.
With love in Christ,
Michael Boldea Jr.