Sunday, February 16, 2014

The Disquiet

It has been almost two weeks since it’s all I could do to keep from jumping out of my skin. Time in prayer seems to be the only thing that can alleviate the sense of foreboding I’ve been feeling, a disquiet that goes far beyond what the eye can see, or the skin can touch.

I can’t put my finger on it. I’ve prayed repeatedly for some discernment on the matter, some sort of elucidation or illumination, but all I’m getting is this sense of unease, this expectancy of something horrible beyond words around the corner.

The one thing I know is that it doesn’t have to do with me personally. It’s not something I’m feeling will happen to me, but something on a larger, more far reaching scale than one individual, or even one event.

Perhaps I’m the only one, but somehow I doubt it. If you’ve been feeling like this, if a sense of an impending something has been gnawing at you of late, let me know.

Like I said, the only thing that curbs the feeling is prayer. I’ve been doing a lot of it lately, and it has been good for me.

God is neither blind nor deaf. He sees, He hears, and He keeps immaculate records. If what I’ve been feeling is in fact the impending judgment of God, then it will be on such a scale as to stop the world in its tracks.  

With love in Christ,
Michael Boldea Jr.


Anonymous said...

Dear Brother Michael,
Two weeks ago, I wrote this on a paper beside my computer: "I am sensing a profound seriousness! How must I respond, O God?" I have not had heaviness, as I have experienced in past years, but there has been this sense of finishing, of watching and waiting which I haven't experienced before. I believe God allows His children to know ahead of time, but not to see 'except in a mirror darkly.' I too, have sensed a beautiful sunshine in prayer...a sense of God's special presence of comfort. I pray for you and your wife, as our Lord leads you to express the unvarnished Truth, as we are living in these last days. (they are last days only for those who do not know Him.) Blessings and Honor and Praise to Him, the Only True and Living God. Amen in His Strong Grip of Grace, Birdwatcher

A sister in Washington said...

I have been waiting for quite some time for the "other shoe to drop" so to speak and it has been making it very hard for me to concentrate on work and basic household chores. Nothing seems very important to me and it feels like I'm just going through the motions waiting for "whatever" to happen. I've felt a sudden urge that I need to start walking to church (2 miles each way.) Not because I don't have a car, but because I feel like it is going to be very important in the future to be in good physical health and being able to walk a decent distance without effort is going to be important. We are such a sedetary, unhealthy culture that when God's judgment comes those who are physically healthy in God's remnant are going to be called on to serve the home bound, elderly, and disabled. I, too, only feel real relief when I pray and found that singing in tongues helps to lift the sense of doom.

Anonymous said...

Yes, but with it "the manifestation of the sons of God"!The hidden arrows in His quiver are being fixed to the bow string, and in the power of His HS, at His precise time, will fly into the heart of the enemy, to destroy the works of Satan. The true church, aka, the Body of Christ, the Bride, will come forth as an army terrible with banners, to do only that which the Father commands. His Name will be revealed and vindicated!!

Anonymous said...

AMEN, brother Michael! I, too, have been feeling what you are feeling, and it increases continually, as if the Lord were putting us on high alert. I keep remembering your dream of the eagle and the serpents, and wondering if the second attack on the eagle is imminent.

Like you, I pray, and also quote Bible verses and keep reminding myself that "God is in control; the Lord is still on His throne; He will keep me in perfect peace if my mind is stayed on Him; our redemption draweth nigh."

Something else that I do almost daily now is read from the booklets containing the visions, dreams, and prophecies which were given through your grandfather and yourself. THEY ARE BEING FULFILLED BEFORE OUR EYES WITH AMAZING ACCURACY, and with ever-increasing rapidity! Each day now brings a dizzying array of news items that prove this, to anyone who has eyes to see.

I urge everyone who is reading this: PLEASE go to the site and order those two booklets, and get extras for your loved ones. Also, get the book "Through the Fire Without Burning." They will help you immensely to prepare for what's coming. They powerfully exhort us to become a holy people, reminding us that there's always more we can do to become more pleasing to God.How blessed we are to have these resources! Also, listen to Michael Boldea on
Praying for you and with you, Michael, for your loved ones, and for Hand of Help---

Anonymous said...

Thank you Bro. Michael for sharing this impression upon your heart and spirit. I see it is interesting, to say the least, that you have been sensing this, just when the "peace agreement" between Israel and the Palestinian state is coming to a close. I pray the Lord gives you confirmation.

meema said...

What I keep hearing:
We've gone from 'get it or don't' to
'prepare to stand'.

I can't begin to know what that means completely, just that I have gone past the anticipation to resolution. Here is something my daughter sent this morning from Bedside Blessings by Charles Swindoll that was both a comfort and a confirmation.

February 16

I have discovered that a joyful countenance has nothing to do with one’s age or one’s occupation (or lack of it) or one’s geography or education or marital status or good looks or circumstances. Joy is a choice. It is a matter of attitude that setms from one’s confidence in God–that He is at work, that He is in full control, that He is in the midst of whatever has happened, is happening, and will happen.

You will make me to know the path of life; in Your presence is fullness of joy. - Psalm 16:11

Anonymous said...

Michael, yes, I've been sensing the same thing. The Lord reminded me of a dream I had many years ago about the coming fire. Either we will be refined by it, or consumed by it. As I sought Him with this dream, He told me it's about to happen and we need to seek Him in prayer. I had stumbled into sin after that dream, and He has restored me through much pain and loss.
Love in Christ,

Anonymous said...

You are not alone, as I know this feeling well. The only way I can explain it, is as a sad feeling of anticipation of the unknown, many times bringing me to the point of tears. I feel this constant need to pray, pray and pray. I have shared this with others.

I don't know if this is related at all, but sometime back I seen the walls at my job broken down in complete ruins. I climbed out from under the rubble infront of my medical dept. unharmed, seeing no one else. The sky was a cloudless blue and the temperature was comfortable.

Today before reading your post, I was at work thinking about this, then I started thinking about the disaster drill that we just had had. The person in charge of the county disaster team scolded me for doing what I was suppose to do, instead of doing what he thought I should be doing. As I was thinking about his statements to me, I heard the Holy Spirit say that he is not prepared for what is coming and will not be able to handle the reality of it. That all the planning will have no affect and people will be running to and fro without direction, not knowing where to begin or what to do next. Again, I don't know if this is related at all to the topic.

God bless you,

bobjones68 said...

Brother Michael,

I have sensed (usually outside of my prayer time) an increasing 'dread' if you will on a national level, less so on a regional level, and actually a sense of peace on a local level to where we live. This has actually been going on for me for about the last 4 years or so. This feeling was so bad during my prayer time 4 years ago (when I lived in Chicago) that I cried out to the Lord asking Him to lead me by circumstance to the place He wanted me to be. And, for now at least, here I am.

As I have prayed over the past several years, once it became certain the the US refused to repent but instead rushed headlong into the evil of its collective, national sins (abortions/infanticide, homosexuality, and drug legalization), I have gotten what I believe to be the Lord saying that He has set aside certain areas of the country where the people are predominantly focused of Him and not the world will be spared much/most of His judgment. It is these few locations that I sense and believe will suffer much less during the rest of the nation during our national Judgment.

Anyway, I am nobody special so take my testimony as you with (large grain of salt comes to mind :) )

God bless,

Unknown said...

Maybe this helps

j said...

Nothing surprises me anymore. I'm sure God's judgement is going to come down hard on the so called Christian preachers and churches who refuse to preach God's uncompromised Word of God.
I'm sure he'll come down on us Christians who just follow the crowd instead standing up for him.

Unknown said...

Maybe this helps

Anonymous said...

Yes. To everything you just said, yes, it's happening, I agree, it's driving me crazy. My children feel the same way. We have been waiting...waiting and wondering....for what? I don't know exactly, but it seems sure to be from God. Disquiet is the perfect word. Foreboding works too. Everywhere I've been turning, for the past several weeks, it seems I'm waiting for something. I constantly watch the sky. Today I came to a dead stop in my yard, looked up and asked God to please help me understand or to take away this dread that has been hanging over me.

Nothing is trivial anymore. Everything matters. My smallest thoughts, the tiniest action, it seems my very breath has consequences.

Come Lord Jesus, protect your people, give me your peace.

In Christ, Mrs. Pugh

Sam Larson said...

I have been feeling the same thing.

Anonymous said...

You are not alone. For about a month now my family has been under what feels like direct, hateful and blatant attack from the enemy. Our friends have felt it too. There is a sense of disquiet and, not to be too melodramatic, but utter doom that has been consuming our lives.

Take heart in knowing that God brings together those who love Him; He is faithful to His children and He will not abandon us in our time of trial. He knows all, sees all and is with us through all. He does not abandon His faithful.

Anonymous said...

I have felt something that may be similar. Lately, for months, I have felt the world has become so depraved and the air so filled with unseen evil that all I want to do is stay home and hide from it. I have to go to work, and thank God every day that I still have a job, but from the moment I leave my house (I thank God for that too) I cannot wait to get back in and close the door against all that is outside the immediate presence of God in my prayed-over home. This has been increasing over time, and even on a warm and beautiful summer day when I am sitting on the porch watching the flowers bloom, I thank God for that moment feeling always that all hell could break loose the next day. I've gotten into the habit of thanking God for each moment, each day of peace, provision, and the fact that my world is holding together at all - lights still come on when you turn the switch, the furnace works during the bitterest winter in memory, there is still running water. Tomorrow there may not be any of these things. I have felt this for the longest time, that all is hanging by a thread, and only by the grace of God has it not happened already.

Anonymous said...

Well I'm feeling it now!!!

Antipas Knight said...

Hello Michael,

I am with a small group of Messianic Jewish & Israeli believers out of San Diego, CA.
It is 75 degrees, bright, and sunny climate ~ it is hard to believe the East Coast weather, Israel, and worldly persecution of Christians.
There is a sort of "malaise" and "surrealism" that has been difficult to describe. The description that comes to mind is the "facing off" / drawing the battle lines of enormous titans (spiritual and physical).
Much like the calm before the storm.

Kevin B said...

Michael, I've felt this way for a few months now, and I suppose as each day passes, my expectation of something happening, whatever that something is, grows stronger. As I see the mouth of sin grow wider each day, I ponder the silence that follows. God is holy - He is a just judge. I believe He has withheld His judgments and certain things to take place because He is also perfect in mercy. But, when you see evil and the acceptance of evil growing faster and stronger each day, I know that God will soon respond. His mercy, although desirable to God, doesn't trump His judgment; because where there is sin, there will be judgment.

It's not simply just knowing this about God, but I do sense something about to happen. Not just a small thing, or a judgment on a town over here and over there. Something will happen in response to the growth of evil man has pursued, attained and glorified.

This is what I perceive anyway. I know that God has caused me to weep heavily and for a prolonged time when in prayer about His judgments. When I weep, it's in sadness. There's been no specific reason why I'm weeping - just a sense of expectation of what God must now do in response to man's choices.

Love in Christ, Kevin

jerry mcfarland said...

I'm with you brother. Especially this morning on the way to work. Just a foreboding. I noticed a news article in Arizona where politicians are warning how to prepare for an EMP. The Iranian ships nearing our coast doesn't help either.

Prayer is all. I pray for mercy in judgement for His people because we (as a whole) are so ignorant of the times. I know what has to happen and do not look forward to it.

Valori said...

It is the same for me. I wake up every day and try to "pump" myself up to face another day. God is quiet. Perhaps the peace before the storm? God is telling me to trust, trust, trust. This is a lesson He has been drilling into me steadily for the past decade and a half. I grow weary. I want comforted. I am tired. I too wait for some supernatural move of God so that we can reach out to one another and comfort one another... especially those as of yet - don't have ears to hear...

Anonymous said...

I totally and unequivocally echo your thoughts and prayers. I too have been walking around and weeping with foreboding for what I feel in my spirit is coming. Only prayer has given me shalom in these hours. The only words I have recieved are these: All will be revealed in a moment; stay steady and occupy; I have knitted you in! May we all be prepared on that day. Amen in Yahshua's name.

R Lockwood (UK) said...

Michael you are not alone many are feeling likewise. R L UK

Anonymous said...

I've had feelings like it before, without explanation? It hit me yesterday 16,Feb and again today, but I couldn't put a word to it. Thank you Michael, 'foreboding' fits it to a 'T'. I too asked Father what it could be, but I didn't get a specific answer. It was a bit overwhelming, so I cast it (as I do all burdens) on our Lord Jesus Christ and asked for His burden in return - which is light, easy and peaceful and the feeling went away. reb

Mary said...

Many of the comments here echo my feelings, also. As the New Year approached, I felt that 2014 would be a year that commands our attention.

Linda B said...

You are not alone. I've been feeling this for a while now. Once it happens life will never be the same. It will be terrible.

MarsHill said...

My daughter said to me a few weeks ago; "Dad, I don't feel like I can look forward to graduating high school or going onto college. I think that things are going to get bad before all that."

Anonymous said...

Brother Mike, I feel the same foreboding and this is what I was led He speaks as your grandfather did!!! May the Lord be merciful!!

Anonymous said...

yes !!! let's lift each other up in prayer, for our discernment, strength, wisdom, and safety. Most of all that we would be obedient and bold to know the Lord's will. Please remember me, and my family in your prayers brethren. The peace of God to you all.

Anonymous said...

Brother Michael,
You are not alone. I started feeling the same way about 9 months ago. A close friend and intercessor started feeling the same way about a week later. We have felt compelled to pray, pray, pray especially in the spirit. There is a complete exhaustion at times which we believe is either spiritual warfare or deep intercession for Israel, the body of Christ, and the impending judgment on our nation. When I read your post, I was so thankful as it confirmed what we were feeling. My pastor husband and I are feeling especially strong oppression on the reservation where we are ministering. We read every post and the writings of your grandfather. We are praying for you. Vicki

Unknown said...


I have felt it as well. Having completed my first Joseph fast a month ago I can vouche for the attacks upon us that earnestly seek our Lord. But I am at peace in those issues, although they are not resolved yet.

Having started a second fast last week, I at first ascribed this foreboding to more "death" of my "Old (wo)man"....but I know it's more - much more.

I have been amazed there has been NO outcry, that I've heard at least, now that everyone in this nation is required to pay for "healthcare" that mandates paying into abortion funds. WHERE IS THE CHURCH??? I know this nation will pay a horrendous price for this, especially in consideration of the 55/56 million babies we have already sacrificed to Satan.

But our Lord is SO faithful! Just yesterday He answered two of my prayers in miraculous ways. He is mind blowing. It is to good to be so loved!

We must keep seeking Him in everything; every minute of every day, the best we can, and be unreservedly obedient to His every word.

Bless you for what you do!

Kathy Lehman

Holly said...

I have had a lingering feeling of unease,a vague distress. Sometimes,out of the blue,I "see" fire.

Beth Marie said...

Yes, I fasted for 21 days in January and believe my eyes were opened to a few things. I have deleted my Facebook account and feel this is truly a calm before the storm. I am taking full advantage of it to get closer to the Lord and am letting go of everything in my life that keeps us apart. I do not like to give satan much attention, but I will say that there has been an unholy fascination with evil...even amoung believers...especially since the beginning of the year. Something's up, no doubt ~

Sandra G said...

Brother Mike,

Your message is a confirmation of what my Pastor and I perceived in the Spirit the event being due in February. I live in California and am working hard on all levels to join my Pastor and his church in Florida. I just completed a special 3 week fast with 6 other sisters and throughout I've found myself interceding heavily for the bride of Christ, that we be strong in faith, that we see the glory of the Lord, but most importantly, that we have that love, for perfect love casts out fear. When I readthis blog hours ago, my prayer went to a whole new level heeding other exhortations to pray for lost souls and having genuine compassion for them pleading repentance for all the ones who are yet to be found. I have even found myself praying for and forgiving my enemies, for God is a God of justice and his works are not to be taken lightly if we are still waiting for them...they do come.

God bless you Brother Mike, your family, and Hand of Help Ministries. The Lord has woken up for his children to be loosed from the bonds of oppression for them to step into his glory. The church will be woken up with new reality soon that Jesus Christ is coming.

Sis. Sandra


Anonymous said...

Me too, Michael. Caleb

Anonymous said...

It is time. Pray Luke 21:36. That is what we are instructed to do at this time.

Anonymous said...

I believe God is waking people up to what is coming. What is so close you can feel it. The signs have been here for a while now, but I sense in the very depth of my being that it is at the door. I, too, have had to get on my knees and as God go stay close. That is the only way I can get through a day sometimes. I feel such a foreboding. I can feel evil in the air. He is on the attack.

K D Elizabeth said...

Dear Brother,

I, also have had a foreboding heaviness. I feel the time for which Messiah commanded His followers to "be ready" is at hand. It is time to have our lamps filled with oil and wicks trimmed.

Shalom, Elizabeth

Anonymous said...

I have been feeling this for quite some time. I also feel that it is very close at hand.

Double Sword Chick said...

It just dawned on me, what this feeling IS that we're all experiencing @ the same time. It's what my first OB-GYN nurse described shortly before I went into labor. She said: "You will have a general feeling of malaise." That's it! We're all feeling malaise b/c the labor pains are about to intensify, quicken, intensify more, then finally end in ultimate birth...our various discomforts & feelings of dread have all been leading up to this, this "woman in travail" sort of feeling--straight out of the Bible itself! Hallelujah, He is about to show up at last...Maranatha, come Lord Jesus!

Anonymous said...

Blessings brother Michael.

I bear witness to what you're feeling and saying. The time of preparation is ending, and it is now time to batten down the hatches. It is time to get into the place that the Lord has positioned you. Your only place of security is in Christ Jesus. The only way now to fulfill the purpose for each of us, is to take each step gingerly, in the Holy Spirit. Missteps can be fatal.

Mat 24:9 Then shall they deliver you up to be afflicted, and shall kill you: and ye shall be hated of all nations for my name's sake.
Mat 24:10 And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another.
Mat 24:11 And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many.
Mat 24:12 And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.
Mat 24:13 But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved.
Mat 24:14 And this gospel of the kingdom shall be preached in all the world for a witness unto all nations; and then shall the end come.
Mat 24:15 ¶When ye therefore shall see the abomination of desolation, spoken of by Daniel the prophet, stand in the holy place, (whoso readeth, let him understand:)Psa 23:5
Rev 13:7 And it was given unto him to make war with the saints, and to overcome them: and power was given him over all kindreds, and tongues, and nations.
Rev 13:9 If any man have an ear, let him hear.
Rev 13:10 He that leadeth into captivity shall go into captivity: he that killeth with the sword must be killed with the sword. Here is the patience and the faith of the saints.
Rev 14:12 Here is the patience of the saints: here are they that keep the commandments of God, and the faith of Jesus.
Rev 14:13 And I heard a voice from heaven saying unto me, Write, Blessed are the dead which die in the Lord from henceforth: Yea, saith the Spirit, that they may rest from their labours; and their works do follow them.
Rev 15:4 Who shall not fear thee, O Lord, and glorify thy name? for thou only art holy: for all nations shall come and worship before thee; for thy judgments are made manifest.

Shalom, John/ aka: NOTADOC/TRUEMAN

Anonymous said...

My experience as well. "Fear not !" has been His word to me for years now.
Luke 21:36 indeed.
Courage, brothers and sisters. We have His promises.