I receive allot of encouraging e-mails and comments from many of you, as well as some from truly hurting people looking for some guidance, a little light, and perhaps some encouragement themselves. The response is not all positive, in fact I received an e-mail from a man who I will assume, at least from now is a brother in the Lord, that was, and I assume still is very angry with me.
Although his e-mail was a few pages long, and if it was a comment I doubt I would have posted it since he added nothing to the whole of the conversation, the highlights of his writings went something like this:
'You're the chairman of a prophetic ministry, so prophesy already! I trust the words God shows you, but every body's coming out with new messages, and you're being silent. Why aren't you at least pointing out the things you were right on about? If it were anybody else, they'd be up on a soapbox beating their chests, screaming look at me, look at me!'
Sometimes, the most difficult thing for a mouthpiece to do, is to be silent. If God has not spoken, or if He has given a message to be released at a later date, the mouthpiece is beholden to God, to be obedient.
Be silent when God is silent, speak when He says 'speak'. It should be simple. In theory it is. However, I have known many men who having grown impatient with God, and with waiting on God, took it upon themselves to speak on his behalf when He did not speak.
Putting words in God's mouth is a dangerous endeavor, as is speaking before you have been released to do so.
As far as getting on a soapbox is concerned, I don't like splinters, and I suffer from vertigo. To be perfectly honest, it doesn't take much inquiry to see the state of the world, just read the headlines of your local paper, or browse some of the news sites on the web. The culmination of what God has been speaking for the past twenty years is at hand, and we are seeing the pieces come together in faster and more pronounced ways than ever before.
As far as boasting about being right, they weren't my words to begin with, so how can I take credit for them?
I have known good men who have succumbed to prophetic pressure, and felt as though the owed the people a word, even though God remained silent.
Whether you are one step ahead of God, or one step behind Him, you're still not in His perfect will, and this is something I learned a long time ago.
This is the reason why so many men who profess to have a prophetic mantle, continue missing the mark with their words, because the words they spoke were their own.
I love the brethren, I appreciate those who feel led to help the ministry God has entrusted to me, but this does not mean that I would endanger my eternal soul, or feel such indebtedness, that I would go ahead of God, and speak words which He specifically instructed that I keep for an appointed time.
I am sorry some of you feel frustrated, but I do not apologize for the fact that I don't put out a vision or a dream every other week. I only speak when I know with certainty that God has not only spoken, but has released me to pass on the message.
To the wise, even silence speaks volumes, and one does not require weekly updates from the throne room to know that God is using our enemies, our greed, and even nature itself to bring our pride to its knees.
To my brother Albert, who wrote the angry and lengthy e-mail, perhaps your time would be better spent in solitude with God, praying, fasting, learning to hear His voice for yourself, than fishing for fresh words with ever increasing desperation. That which is necessary for your salvation, sanctification, and relationship with Jesus Christ, is already in the Word, and at the end of the day, that is the most important task of all, to make sure that we have an established relationship with our heavenly Father.
Yes God is still speaking, but for now He demands silence, and I, as an obedient servant must acquiesce.
With love in Christ,
Michael Boldea Jr.
Post Script: The trip to Baltimore was a blessing, at least for me. I got to meet a truly sincere soul, who is hungry for more of God, and if I mention his name he'll probably blush, so I'd better not. Thank you all for your prayers, and thank you to those who made the long drives to come and hear what God put on my heart, I hope your disappointment wasn't too great.